tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26479518653136906452024-03-14T18:47:48.851+08:00soft voicesa personal journal on the life-journey with GODeirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-53488653306913297182012-03-13T10:46:00.002+08:002012-03-13T10:50:59.720+08:00The Stones That Remain<span style="font-size: 100%;">In the dust of our crumbling institutions,</span><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">in the dust of our crumbling witness,</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">in the dust of our crumbling fellowship,</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">the Servant kneels and writes,</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">"Let him who is without sin cast the first stone."</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">And I gather the stones that remain </div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">from my original allotment</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">and determine to build an altar</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">- regrettably smaller now that it might have been -</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">smaller for the want of wasted stones.</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">I gather the stones that remain</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">and determine to build an altar of worship.</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">Who will join me?</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; ">- by Terry W.York (from <i>The Church Musician</i>, 1996)</div><div><i><span >a poem about leaving our childish stone throwing behind </span></i></div><div><i><span >and using our energies for worship</span></i></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-60242641515855616222012-02-17T10:34:00.004+08:002012-02-18T22:53:28.179+08:00Love vs Fear<span style="font-size: 100%;">A mother was thinking how to teach her 2 year old daughter to share a toy with her friends.</span><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">One day she saw her daughter fighting for a toy, so she came and talk nicely to the girl, asking her what would her friend feel if she grab the toy? </div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">If she feels happy playing with the toy, wouldnt her friends also feel the same way if they can play the toy too?</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">And the girl learned...</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><div><br /></div></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">Another mother was also thinking the same thing for her daughter.</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">One day when she witnessed her daughter fighting for a toy, she grabbed the girl, hit the girl's hand twice and scolding her for fighting.</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">The mother told the little girl that if she ever do that again, she will get 4 hits from the mother and not allow to play with her friends anymore.</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; ">And the girl learned...</div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i>There is no fear in love. </i></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i>But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. </i></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i>The one who fears is not made perfect in love.</i></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i>~1 John 4:18 (NIV)</i></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i><br /></i></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: right; "><span>Lord, help me to obey you out of love instead of simply fearing your punishments...</span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-53809531637935124362011-12-19T09:30:00.003+08:002011-12-19T10:23:16.052+08:00The Church: BCCThere are few churches in Singapore that had contribution in shaping my perspective of ministry.<br />I would like to mention Bartley Christian Church as the one that inspired, built, and encouraged me, not only to be a better minister, but most of all, to be a better person.<br />I enjoyed the choir rehearsals, relationship with the choir members, and even with the worship team members...yet I felt a bit lost when I visited them for the first time.<br />til I found the Indonesian (Domestic Helpers) Fellowship.<br />So beside leading the English choir, I brought myself involved in the fellowship..<br />Being actively involved in the fellowship brought me to a new perspective of mission, evangelism, and pastoral activities.<br />It helped me to see the people not merely as object of evangelism or even "mission field"...but the involvement helped me to see them as persons.<br />Listening to their struggles, problems, (and also thanksgivings!) made me realized that they are just like me... fallen human that needs to be comforted and mostly, loved.<br />At first I thought it will be "my duty and responsibility" to care for them, showing love, comforting or even praying for them...<br />but to my surprise, it wasnt about them at all..<br />I was showered by their love, cares, and even blessings such as cakes, kerupuk, and many other indonesian food that they cook for me.<br /><br />It goes the same way with the people in the choir.<br />Again I thought I need to do so many pastoral things for them (beside teaching them anthems and vocal training)....at the end, I was again showered by their love, cares, and even prayers.<br />When I shared my struggles to them, they would really pray for me during the week and ask me again when they meet me.<br />Their commitment to serve God in choir truly amazed me.<br />Despite their heavy schedule of work and business appointments, they made choir schedule as priorities, and even put effort to listen to the youtube/mp3 links that are sent to them.<br />But the greatest blessings for me (as their conductor) were the times on the stage when we worship God together through worship songs, choral anthems, taize prayer songs...<br />Seeing the expression of worship in their eyes and in their gestures truly inspired me in worshipping God..and there I was, standing less than 3 meters in front of them.<br />Several times I didnt dare to look at the eyes of some persons during anthem presentations coz they were tearing when they sang the anthem...<br />I truly witness how the message of the anthems have touched their hearts,<br />and that same message is what they were trying to convey God's people who listen.<br />I think it's the core of the choir ministry.<br /><br />It's no longer about "The choir sings beautiful!"<br />or "The sopranos were amazing" or "I love the male voices"....<br />(Yes, I was trapped in these things once)<br />Indeed it was a "breakthrough".. (a word from Ps.Joseph Lee, Worship Pastor@BCC)<br /><br />The recent "choir exposure" trip had also blessed my own home church in Jakarta.<br />The coming of 14 persons with the age range from 14 to 70!! had inspired many choir members in my home church.<br />A mission school was blessed by their teaching and gifts<br />The youth was blessed by their friendly and encouraging attitudes.<br />Even the adults was blessed in witnessing what could happen when God's people united.<br />It was truly a blessed moments. (Ps 133)<br /><br />These experience had also brought a revival in me.<br />PTL!eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-14216912826620676092011-12-19T09:20:00.005+08:002012-02-17T10:33:30.916+08:00Counting My Blessings<span style="font-size: 100%;">People say, good memories are easily forgotten,</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">but bad memories, hurts, bitterness, hatreds, they stay (longer)...</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">coming to the last semester of my study,</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">I decided to count my blessings...</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">to help my "short-term memory" remember how good God has been to me,</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">and to remember how much I'm loved by Him through the people surround me :)</span><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; "><span >Count your blessings, name them one by one,</span></div><div style="text-align: right; "><span >Count your blessings, see what God hath done!</span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-87278155377895009172011-09-07T23:59:00.002+08:002012-02-17T10:32:54.717+08:00in the silent<span style="font-size: 100%;">I prayed like the psalmists</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">I grumbled of those who ruined my peace</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">I reported those who wronged me</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">Things I had been keeping inside my heart</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">cause they're not pleasant to be heard</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">Grudges I treasured inside my mind</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">cause I learned to "accept" others' differences</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">Today I poured them all</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">not to friends</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">nor to the closest one in my life</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">but only to You,</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">my Everlasting Comforter,</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">Source of fullness of peace</span><br /><span style="font-size: 100%;">both in heart and mind</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; "><span >Cleanse my heart o, Lord</span></div><div style="text-align: right; "><span >and grant me peace..</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-39046411047001958632011-07-16T11:54:00.004+08:002011-07-16T12:18:08.628+08:00Final year begin..Finally, i've become one of the the final year students in School of Church Music, SBC.<br />Just right before the school start, many "not so happy" news came in..<br />new students being discouraged by the stories regarding some teachers,<br />some returning students had their major teacher changed,<br />the bulky schedule where almost all SOCM students are having class in the same time, which will cause difficulties in setting up private lessons and personal practices....<br /><br />yet it has been very encouraging to see 10 new students coming this year in music department,<br />plus the relationship within my classmates is getting much better after the straight-talk we had at class trip in Malacca, end of last semester.<br /><br />This final year we are all preparing for our Senior Recital, with all the targets in mind, load of stress, physically and emotionally...and plannings for the future after graduation..<br />Hmm.. All these anxious thoughts I commit to my God and my Savior.<br /><br />He was the One who had brought me here,<br />His grace has been overflow during my 3 years of study here,<br />I know He will bring me to the end of this journey of study.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><span style="font-size:85%;">Great is Thy faithfulness unto me.<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-22798662227073621592011-03-31T14:26:00.003+08:002011-03-31T14:58:31.566+08:00beautiful for HimBeing single again after few years of relationship is never easy, especially when you're not "that" young anymore..<br />It means adjustments of the daily routines, priorities, future plans, which relates to ministry, families, and financial matters.<br />Not only that, it also means nights of wet pillow, panda-eyes, roller-coaster emotion, or even sleepless nights..<br /><br />The worst feeling comes out of a broken relationship is the feeling of unworthiness.<br />at least that's the feeling I experienced..<br />There would be times when I thought of myself very low, not as being humble...<br />but more to insecure and lost of confident.<br />Going to the mirror just to feel ugly, old, and tired.<br />and worst: unloved.<br /><br />This is one of the song that had brought blessing and comfort for me during those times.<br />I think this song should be a "MUST LISTEN" song for ALL ladies, despite of your age.<br />In your deepest despair, remember that there's Someone who never quit loving you..<br /><br /><iframe title="YouTube video player" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/IIDEs0xhcBs" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" width="480"></iframe><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="font-size:85%;">Thank You, Lord<br />for I know You created me beautiful for You<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-84980965047403478962011-02-15T17:13:00.003+08:002011-02-15T17:32:54.586+08:00grow old vs grow upUsually the "most sensitive" day of the year would be my birthday, but this year...<br />preparing for the junior recital has been making me much more sensitive than ever!<br /><br />Usually the "most sensitive" day is literally a one day thing...<br />but this "sensitive" mood has been going for dayzzzzz...<br />(even worst than having period!)<br /><br />i've been daydreaming on a lot of bad things..<br />imagining a lot of "what if"s..<br />crying silently during meditation, in the class, and before sleep..<br />easily discouraged by others' comments..<br />having detailed planning of how to take revenge of it..<br />or simply imagining of shouting back to them..<br />complaining to God about them..<br />complaining to God for having this emotion inside of me..<br />thinking of hiding in the corner under my table with my bolster and blanket for the whole day..<br /><br /><br />aarghh.. >.<<br />still wondering until now..<br />when will i become an emotionally matured person?<br />when will i have a "weather-proofed" heart?<br /><br />a new decade of my life is about to come..<br />yet here i am..still with a childish thought and emotion..<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">grow up, will you..?!!</span></span><br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-88314881788870273442011-01-08T08:24:00.003+08:002011-01-08T08:38:54.308+08:00The "new" BeautitudesJesus said:<br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you're at the end of your rope.<br /> With less of you there is more of God and his rule.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you.<br /> Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you're content with just who you are - no more, no less -<br /> That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you've worked up a good appetite for God.<br /> He's food and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you care.<br /> At the moment of being "care-full", you find yourselves cared for.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you get your inside world - your mind and heart - put right.<br /> Then you can see God in the outside world.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight.<br /> That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">You're blessed</span> when your commitment to God provokes persecution.<br /> The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Count yourselves blessed</span> every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit Me.<br /> What it means is that <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable</span>.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:85%;" >Matthew 5:3-11 ~ The Message</span><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><br />A new horizon arose in me when I read this "new" Beautitudes.<br />Thank God for "The Message".<br />When we think that we've lost something, we actually gain more...<br />Cheer up, we're blessed! ^_^<br /></div></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-75989007553138119312010-11-07T19:16:00.006+08:002011-01-08T08:50:23.521+08:00shower of blessingsThis semester I have 10 final exams in 2 weeks.<br />4 exams in the first week, and the rest in the following week.<br />I have been stressed, sensitive, emotional, high tempered, and physically weak...<br /><br />but, look how God shows His care....<br />He gave me angels to surround me with love and cares.. ^_^<br /><br />nite before my grade 8 theory exam, <a href="http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#%21/kristina.bj">Kristina Bjorkman</a> paste this on my door...<br />gr.8 theory is one of the requirement to continue the 4th year..<br />if any of us doesnt pass this Trinity exam, he or she will certainly be granted only Diploma,<br />cannot continue to Bachelor degree..<br />It's not something like extremely difficult.. but the consequences that follow the exam was a scary thing for everybody in my class..<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggRwgvJIuYfmukijTG4BG5SNTLo12QtIWI0dKE5nexebxnaH6O07hGHF_RYbeAjnjxu91b-PQW4sQU2tI0YS3mNWE6YPBOXzMmi7luPuExY1kVMkfczenpeTrvamuEKDegjr6l9Uinaxo/s1600/sweet+kristina.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggRwgvJIuYfmukijTG4BG5SNTLo12QtIWI0dKE5nexebxnaH6O07hGHF_RYbeAjnjxu91b-PQW4sQU2tI0YS3mNWE6YPBOXzMmi7luPuExY1kVMkfczenpeTrvamuEKDegjr6l9Uinaxo/s320/sweet+kristina.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5536765984353387634" border="0" /></a><br /><br />and then, the note came...<br />comforting..<br />and encouraging...<br /><br />she knows I love cat pictures, so she drew a cat there.. hahaha..<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />then the first week ended.<br />and now, I'm facing 5 more exams (1 of the exams was changed into an assignment) and 2 final assignments all due in next week..<br /><br />again, He showered me with a lovely blessing from my <a href="http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#%21/profile.php?id=516020347">roommate</a>...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZk3iRxwOnfb7PE-ZnFosZsNKwPfaSZBX9dw8qVeMQ4C4xxdX2w1bd9zpWv8vHUuwWvS0Ur6lDd0MKts95Yq6ZOYoyjY3qQiGMfq5oKl2PEAQ71CwecOIcl5DTyndovhY1yHU9_WrYtJA/s1600/sweet+A.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZk3iRxwOnfb7PE-ZnFosZsNKwPfaSZBX9dw8qVeMQ4C4xxdX2w1bd9zpWv8vHUuwWvS0Ur6lDd0MKts95Yq6ZOYoyjY3qQiGMfq5oKl2PEAQ71CwecOIcl5DTyndovhY1yHU9_WrYtJA/s320/sweet+A.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5536765994496258098" border="0" /></a>chocolate always works!!<br />^_^<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="font-size:85%;">thank you, Lord...<br />for sending these 2 angels for me..<br /></span></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"></span>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-72578293077672615772010-10-27T16:15:00.003+08:002010-10-27T16:27:45.741+08:00Andaikan....Few years ago, I went to Bali to visit my friend's family.<br />I never thought that the visit brought me a new family there.<br />His parents were so nice and warm towards me (and my other friend), and I still remember I went with tears when I left his parents' house.<br /><br />This week, they came to Singapore!<br />It's actually for shushu (my friend's father)'s heart surgery.<br />I visited them a couple of times during their stay @ Raffles Hospital, and always enjoyed their warmth welcome...<br />They left Singapore today as Shushu's recovery from the surgery went well.<br />I hope to meet you again, Shushu, yiyi...<br /><br />this is Shushu's favorite song when I met him the first time in Bali.<br />Everytime I listen to this song, I would remember him...<br /><br /><br /><object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/skRy1noRHaA?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/skRy1noRHaA?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" height="385" width="480"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />and somehow the lyrics become real with what's happening inside my heart right now...<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:85%;" >With God's strength, I'll go on<br />only, I wish.....</span><br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-32534960632189478142010-10-20T12:20:00.004+08:002010-10-20T21:54:53.582+08:00One day, a japanesse friend shared in the music chapel based on 1 Thess 5: 16-18<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-style: italic;">"Be joyful always;<br />pray continually;<br />give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."</span></span><br /><br />It was a very encouraging moment for me...<br />she's not sharing this in an easy circumstances.<br />She was facing tremendous marriage problem while alone in a country that she has no relatives.<br />But it was through this problem, God called her to know Him, and even used her as channel to blessed, to encourage, to comfort other ladies facing the same problem.<br />It was one night that she comfort another lady with the same problem she experienced, she sang a song to comfort this lady.<br />It's a Japanesse song (I totally forgot how to pronounce it!!) with children tune, which words are taken from this passage.<br />The writer shared something along with the song.<br /><br />Here is the quote that my japanesse friend shared based on the passages:<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;" >when u just couldnt find any reason to be happy, be joyful always!<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>when u're too busy to pray, pray unceasingly!</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;" ><span class="UIStory_Message"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>when facing the difficult circumstances n discouraging people, give thanks!</span></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">~ Rennie Ohtani</span></span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br /></span><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:85%;" >Joy is not a state of heart without problem,<br />but it is the presence of Christ.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-63659662719502201722010-10-20T11:42:00.001+08:002010-10-20T11:46:19.188+08:00a reminderToday I read an interesting quote in "Lady in Waiting":<br />- impression without expression leads to depression -<br /><br />hmm...reminded me on my blog..<br />should write more before I'm heading to depression :peirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-7962121864140572662010-03-14T08:47:00.003+08:002010-03-14T08:50:28.191+08:00the DAYthe day is coming AGAIN.....<br /><br />while all the people are saying wishes and happy this - happy that...<br />here i am, seated in the silence...<br />facing the MOST sensitive day of the year...eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-23773131688630189382010-02-18T07:22:00.003+08:002010-02-18T07:42:03.840+08:00no titleshe sleeps around 1 am everyday, wakes up at 5am to do her daily devotion and Bible reading.<br />morning cleaning duty comes after that, then half an hour jogging to Botanic Garden.<br />Breakfast, shower and make up.<br />Then her day "starts".<br /><br />Reading assignments,<br />Theology papers,<br />Sermon assignments,<br />Harmony homework,<br />Classes,<br />Ear training and conducting self-practice,<br />Music Lessons,<br />Chapels,<br />Student Council meetings and tasks,<br />Duties required for scholarship, 4 hours a week,<br />also need to practice for music lessons too!! hmm..say, 2-3 hours per day.<br />must practice for church ministry also! practice their choral songs, congregation songs.<br /><br />Suddenly out of nowhere someone came to her life.<br />what?? extra time for listening to your problems?<br />extra time to help you with your songs?<br />extra time to rehearse your songs?<br />I almost don't have time for myself!<br />Can't you see I'm very busy that I can't even breathe?<br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255);"><span style="font-size:85%;">no judgments made.<br />simply wondering if her Bible is different with mine.<br />or perhaps it's just a "clash" of perspective?<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-74658789935784292112010-02-07T13:35:00.003+08:002010-02-07T13:52:45.483+08:00a decision.it's never an easy decision...<br />after so much time, emotion, and energy consumed, a difficult decision has to be made.<br />many things could be learned from the past,and somehow I hope have gained some growth in me.<br /><br /><br />here I am.<br />alone yet not lonely.<br />single yet contented.<br />no regret, only Praise the Lord.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="font-size:85%;">"I know that you can do all things;<br />no plans of yours can be thwarted."<br />Job 42:1<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-79669758426450944332010-01-24T08:01:00.002+08:002010-01-24T08:34:57.886+08:00to give up or not to give upShould this part be played <span style="font-style: italic;">crescendo</span> or <span style="font-style: italic;">diminuendo</span>?
<br />Is this part still belong to the phrase or it's the echo?
<br />Should it be louder or softer than the previous one?
<br />How loud is <span style="font-style: italic;">forte</span>, and how loud is <span style="font-style: italic;">mf</span>?
<br />wrong fingering, think how should it be..
<br />it's not forte, you were BANGing it!
<br />play softer, with more flat fingers..
<br />the running notes are not even..
<br />left and right must be together!
<br />
<br />desperate :(
<br />my techniques and my knowledge are not there yet.
<br />i'm not qualified for this exam.
<br />i'm not even qualified to play this instrument.
<br />i'm only a piano-minor.
<br />
<br />"What are you doing, Eirene?"
<br />--I'm giving up.
<br />
<br />
<br />Look up!
<br />then look around..
<br />exam is not about getting distinctions..
<br />many people had merits or even simply passed, but they passed.
<br />it's the process.
<br />how the endurance is being built,
<br />humility to be molded,
<br />patience to persevere,
<br />and to experience God's grace and strength instead of my own.
<br />
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<br />eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-35567114291359675132009-05-14T18:00:00.000+08:002009-06-01T10:14:02.896+08:00Thank you, Lord....<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3X8U6am5iX4"></a><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/3X8U6am5iX4&hl=en&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/3X8U6am5iX4&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left; font-style: italic;"><span style="font-size:85%;">in remembrance of<br />a lonely night<br />@ Singapore Botanic Garden<br /></span></div><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">Thank you, Lord..<br />for always being there for me..</div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-81094267125272687532009-04-21T12:53:00.005+08:002010-04-05T14:24:23.508+08:00teachable...It is almost the end of my second semester here, and next week will be our jury week.<br />yesterday, my voice lecturer, Mrs. Alice Mui said this to me at the end of my voice lesson,<br />"i really enjoyed teaching you.. you are so teachable.."<br /><br />her encouragement made me reflect back to my last semester memories of voice lessons,<br />even to my journal which I wrote on last semester about this...<br /><br />it was never been easy for me...<br />God knows how many times I got angry to her,<br />not knowing what she really wants from me,<br />having strange feeling in the technical things she asked me to do,<br />and even got sick of singing....<br /><br /><br />when I went home, people said I sang clearer and better,<br />and I stood there, confused...what's the different..?<br />I thought I didnt get anything "new" from my teacher.<br /><br />as I realized how arrogant I was,<br />I knelt and asked GOD a heart fulled of desire to learn,<br />a humble heart...<br />a disciple heart...<br />a servant heart...<br /><br />and if I can be as I am now...<br />enjoying every lesson I have with her, and even more lessons outside the regular times...<br />enjoying being "mold" by her,<br />happily shaped into what she thinks is better for me..<br /><br />that kind of heart..<br />that kind of attitude..<br />I know exactly it's TOTALLY because of God's grace,<br />because of His love...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;">dan bila aku berdiri<br />tegar sampai hari ini<br />bukan karena kuat dan hebatku<br />semua karena Cinta<br />terima kasih, Cinta....<br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">Lord, please help me to stay consistent...<br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-51122162828744142382009-04-17T12:23:00.001+08:002009-04-21T12:50:09.755+08:00the anxious times...it's been quite a while since I can sleep tight at night...<br />these few weeks, no matter how tired I am, how late I sleeps, my sleeps always end at around 5am.<br /><br />I'm tired...<br />lack of sleep,<br />assignments' due,<br />choir rehearsals,<br />practices for performances,<br />the routine morning duties and table duties,<br />church responsibilities,<br />Student Council tasks,<br />relationship with friends and families...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;"><br />aaarrghh....<br />I was crying while reading Psalm 4<br />Lord, I really want to lie down and sleep in peace...<br />please grant me peace in my heart and in my mind...<br />T_T<br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-84479205874283246712009-04-13T06:00:00.001+08:002009-04-21T12:17:57.005+08:00My First Holy Week in Singaporethe Maundy Thursday Chapel at school was awesome..<br />it is my first experience on Maundy Thursday (I never have it back home).<br /><br />it was actually close to the Good Friday Service in my home-church,<br />remembering Christ's suffering, the cross, the last supper, etc...etc..<br />but at this time, Dr.Merlyn Yap arranged a service where we were not only doing the "feel" and "hear" but also "touch"...<br />she combined those three senses of ours to deepen our understanding of the cross.<br /><br />Started with 4 persons reading on Christ being beaten 40 times minus 1.<br />He's beaten because of our transgression, our sins...<br />it is our pride, our selfishness, our lust, our anger, our cruelty that He bore on His back..<br />around 5 or 6 stanzas of a hymn "Were You There" became alive in front of me...<br />when I put my fingers on a "crown" of thorns...<br />when I held a big nail, which actually still smaller than the one they used to my Jesus...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Lord, how deep is your love for me...<br />it's indeed beyond measure...<br /></div><br />This holy week was very packed and fulled with lots of "activities".<br />I spent the Thursday night with a service in my FE church, St. Peter's Church..<br />having James as my pianist, and enjoy serving together with the choir for the Maundy Thursday Service. It's amazing how we can worked out together with only 1 practice with the pianist.<br />the rehearsal itself was quite disaster because of the "slightly" different view of the tempo...for ALL of the songs..<br />but at the service itself, we managed the tempo very well..<br />^_^<br /><br />The next day, I went back there again for the Good Friday Service.<br />After that, I rushed to GKY Singapore to participate in their "mini cantata".<br />I sang "Via Dolorosa"...<br />It's been awhile since the last time I sang that song..<br />and I felt so blessed, so deeply touched by the words, the music, the emotions....<br /><br />Saturday was a different story...<br />it's our concert day with SSO (again)..<br />We sang "Haydn Mass" at the Esplanade.<br />I just felt -plain- when I sang it..<br />somehow..it was just a good music, nothing more.<br />hmm...need more "enlightenment" about it.<br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255);"><br />.....<br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-74782684532288703742009-04-02T17:49:00.004+08:002009-04-02T19:13:15.273+08:00me and peteryes, I'm talking about Peter, the apostle of Jesus Christ!!<br /><br />During these few weeks, I don't know how many times I've heard about Peter, or message taken from Peter's epistle.<br />Out of nowhere, my thought flew to him personally.<br />I remember him as the fastest among Jesus' disciples to give responses, answers, and even fast to do what he thinks right.<br />remember:<br /> Peter's answer on Jesus's question "who am I" on Luke 9:18-27;<br /> Peter's response during the transfiguration on Luke 9:33<br /> Peter's promise to defend Jesus during the Last Supper on Luke 22:33<br /> Peter's action when Jesus was arrested on John 18:10<br />and finally,<br /> Peter's answer on Jesus' question "do you love me" on John 21:15-25<br /><br />I reflect on myself....<br />remembering how I often (if not ALMOST ALWAYS) give quick response in anything..<br />looking at Peter's life was like having a mirror in front of me.<br />fast of answering, giving response in some matters, and even putting into acts without a deeper thoughts about it.<br /><br />Being realized of this attitude inside me, sometimes I remember to withhold my responses to spend more time to think deeper about it..<br />Although many times the response seldom change from the first response I made, I know I would have a better reason to have this particular response.<br />And this reason is the one that uphold me in times of uncertainty, discourage, or confusion.<br /><br />But in some cases, I thank God for these "fast response" I had..<br />knowing that if I didn't do/answer earlier, I might have changed my mind and lose the opportunities.<br /><br />Aaargghh...<br />Life really put me in so many choices, options which can lead to different things...<br />just like an old children book I used to read, when you think A then go to "this" page, if you think B then go to "this" page...<br />each option you take will brings you to the different "Ending" of the stories.<br /><br />My anxiousness turned to joy when I remember of Rom8:28<br />"And we know that in ALL THINGS God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose"<br />This promise certainly comforts me, just like fresh dew in the dry morning...<br />Knowing that He will uphold me, no matter what I decision I made.<br /><br />It doesn't mean I can choose carelessly and ask Him to make it "right"....<br />but for me personally,<br />it's more to having certainty in whatever response I made, GOD is "at work".<br />Just like he drew Peter back with his three question on "do you love me"...<br />curing Peter's feeling of unworthiness and disappointment...<br /><br />He cares.<br />And just as He didnt leave Peter with his "unworthy" condition,<br />I believe that He will do the same if I come to a "wrong" choice..<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;"><br />so, don't quit, Eirene!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;">keep pressing on...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;">and thank God for everything He has given inside you.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic;">^_^</span></span><br /></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-22348580746747659772009-03-24T20:39:00.002+08:002009-03-24T20:51:57.882+08:00great impact<div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 102, 0);">"Small deeds done with great love will have great impact"</span><br /></div><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(0, 102, 0);">-Mother Teresa-<br /></div><br />this week, the vicar in my FE church delivered a sermon of John 6:1-15,<br />about Jesus feeds the Five thousand.<br /><br />He pointed to the boy who gave up his 5 small barley loaves and 2 small fish,<br />and how in God's hand it became a great blessing for 5000 men, not including women and children.<br />But the main thing is, this boy was willing to gave up his own "lunch"...<br /><br />God can make our "small things" become great blessing for others.<br />The important question is...<br />--are we willing to give up our "lunch"..?--<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255);"><span style="font-size:85%;">Lord, grant me a <span style="font-style: italic;">sensitive eyes</span><br />to see other's needs more than mine,<br /><br />grant me a <span style="font-style: italic;">sensitive mind</span><br />to know when I need to make a step for others,<br /><br />grant me a <span style="font-style: italic;">faithful heart</span><br />to pray for others unceasingly<br /><br />although it seems to be difficult,<br />although it will cost time, energy and feelings<br />although I may not know the reason why...<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">help me, Lord</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">to walk and live Your path..</span></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-21268013581100462082009-03-17T12:57:00.004+08:002009-03-24T20:52:11.730+08:00the new age..it's not about the world ideology..<br />it's just as plain as it is..<br />my new age..<br /><br />I thank GOD for many birthday wishes (and parties) from my lovely friends..<br />A friend told me that I am RICH, because I have a lot of friends and people who love and care for me...<br />And I Thank God for that!! ^_^<br /><br />I really enjoyed my 1st birthday here in singapore, with a lot of friends who has been a family for me..<br />I thank God for you all...<br />my classmates, the St.Peter's Church choir members, my lovely girlz at GKY SG who are joining the piano training under me, and all my friends who had prayed for me and given me their best wishes...<br />I thank God for each one of you ^_^<br /><br />As God added one year in my age,<br />I believe He will continue to uphold me in my journey walking His path, just as He has been...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:130%;">Praise the Lord!<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2647951865313690645.post-19256914344247253702009-03-10T20:26:00.003+08:002009-03-24T20:52:36.117+08:00me and missionsLast week was the mission emphasis week in my school, ended with exhibition and performances in the international nite, where the Indonesian students presented "Sik Sik Si Batumanikam" in 4 parts acapella with dancing I learned from Unpar Choir ^_^<br /><br />but that's not what I'm going to write right now...<br />the thing is..<br /><br />I felt it again..<br />the touch..<br />the calling..<br /><br />along the 4-day messages during the chapel time, I kept recalling my previous calling into mission, in the National Students Camp 2003. (gosh!! it's been 6 years now!!! and I still haven't gone to ANY mission field!)<br />There were few times I had planned to go for missions, but somethings just came out and made me have to cancel the plannings...<br />and those "somethings" were also important "local" ministries... :-?<br /><br />So, I started to pray again for going into short-term missions.<br />Few choices I have in mind right now...<br />I'm interested to go with the SMF (SBC Mission Fellowship), which always has a mission trip at the end of every semester.<br />I also found "Serving in Mission", and organization that support missions and arrange for short-term mission trips.<br />The last choice I can think of is the most reachable one, it is in my own country, joining the ministry of a church in Yogyakarta, and I can go for 2 weeks-1month, basically up to me... ^_^<br /><br />well, when I see all of these choices,<br />the harvests are really plenty..!!!<br />As His labor, would I go for Him??<br /><br /><br />As a start, I took the privilege to be a prayer-partner of a friend who is going to a mission in India in May :)<br />He is going to visit our other friend's hometown in India for two weeks, so it is arranged that he will give some training or workshops for the pianists, and maybe the choir in the local church there.<br /><br />hmm... I envied him when he first told me about his planning..<br />but I realized, my time hasn't come yet..<br />I still have a lot to be prepared,<br />heart, knowledge, skills, and of course.. financial..<br />hmm...<br />keep praying on it!!! ^^<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-style: italic; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-size:85%;">Here I am, Lord<br />I will go, Lord, if You lead me...<br /></span></div>eirene soegijantohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12612618072232628344noreply@blogger.com0