tired...

the second semester is only going to the 3rd week, but somehow i feel exhausted already.

I started this semester with sore throat, losing voice and coughing..
made me spend extra time for making lohanguo drinks, honey-lemon drinks, chrysantemum tea, salt-lemon concentrate, salt-water, steamed pear with chinese medicine, shopping extra fruits like apples, bananas, etc..
ooh..

I was so very occupied that I'd just realized, I didnt even bring my illness to GOD, my creator, the ONE who knows my body more than everyone in the whole world..
what on earth was I talking about in my prayers everyday anyway???????!!!
aaargghhh...

sometimes I can really do "formal" prayers with "default" words and sentences.. >.<
and other times I think He is so great that He wouldn't be interested in my "tiny-little" problems.. like sore throat..
when I started to lose my voice, couldnt follow the choir rehearsals' schedule, cancelling the voice lesson.. only then I started to realized, this isn't tiny anymore..
and only by then I realized, I havent even mentioned my throat to Him..!
not that He didnt know about it..
it just showed how shallow my relationship with Him lately, I think..
I can easily mentioned about it to my friends, but how could I missed telling Him about it..??!!
the coughing hasn't ended yet, suddenly the allergic symptoms came..
it's all over my face, although it's not too bad, it's just confusing me..
what happened to my body??
hmmph.. >.<

then this thing happened..
I lost my keys. Dorm-card, room key, and mailbox key.
all of that cost me 25 S$ because I tried looking for them for 2days and still couldnt find it.
I got stress up, confused, and just...disturbed with this case.
I could't stop feeling upset to myself, thinking how careless I was..
so I finally decided to give up, so just paid to the bussiness office, get the new dorm-card, waiting for the rest of keys being duplicated..
and suddenly this afternoon my roommate found my keys during her cleaning our room..
somehow it was in her basket on her table..
how could it be??? no one could ever answer that question, I think..
hmmph.. >.<

and at the end of this 2nd week, when I scrolled down my agenda, I saw the due dates of my assignments were just..coming..and keep coming..and keep coming..
so many things to be read, to be written, to be practiced, to be sung, and it's just keep going and going..
aaarrrghhh.....


Lord, You know I'm not as healthy and as strong as people think I am..
I'm physically weak..
I'm sick now..
not only physically, but also with my life, I guess..
I'm tired..
I just wanna rest for a while..
sleep for a day..
well...a little longer would be better..

but...
I know You dont call me to come here just to sleep..

then...
I remember..

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"
II Cor 12:9

I just want to come into Your loving arm, and rest there..
May in my weaknesses, Your power be known, O Lord..

e.