shower of blessings

This semester I have 10 final exams in 2 weeks.
4 exams in the first week, and the rest in the following week.
I have been stressed, sensitive, emotional, high tempered, and physically weak...

but, look how God shows His care....
He gave me angels to surround me with love and cares.. ^_^

nite before my grade 8 theory exam, Kristina Bjorkman paste this on my door...
gr.8 theory is one of the requirement to continue the 4th year..
if any of us doesnt pass this Trinity exam, he or she will certainly be granted only Diploma,
cannot continue to Bachelor degree..
It's not something like extremely difficult.. but the consequences that follow the exam was a scary thing for everybody in my class..



and then, the note came...
comforting..
and encouraging...

she knows I love cat pictures, so she drew a cat there.. hahaha..












then the first week ended.
and now, I'm facing 5 more exams (1 of the exams was changed into an assignment) and 2 final assignments all due in next week..

again, He showered me with a lovely blessing from my roommate...

chocolate always works!!
^_^

thank you, Lord...
for sending these 2 angels for me..

Andaikan....

Few years ago, I went to Bali to visit my friend's family.
I never thought that the visit brought me a new family there.
His parents were so nice and warm towards me (and my other friend), and I still remember I went with tears when I left his parents' house.

This week, they came to Singapore!
It's actually for shushu (my friend's father)'s heart surgery.
I visited them a couple of times during their stay @ Raffles Hospital, and always enjoyed their warmth welcome...
They left Singapore today as Shushu's recovery from the surgery went well.
I hope to meet you again, Shushu, yiyi...

this is Shushu's favorite song when I met him the first time in Bali.
Everytime I listen to this song, I would remember him...





and somehow the lyrics become real with what's happening inside my heart right now...

With God's strength, I'll go on
only, I wish.....

One day, a japanesse friend shared in the music chapel based on 1 Thess 5: 16-18
"Be joyful always;
pray continually;
give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

It was a very encouraging moment for me...
she's not sharing this in an easy circumstances.
She was facing tremendous marriage problem while alone in a country that she has no relatives.
But it was through this problem, God called her to know Him, and even used her as channel to blessed, to encourage, to comfort other ladies facing the same problem.
It was one night that she comfort another lady with the same problem she experienced, she sang a song to comfort this lady.
It's a Japanesse song (I totally forgot how to pronounce it!!) with children tune, which words are taken from this passage.
The writer shared something along with the song.

Here is the quote that my japanesse friend shared based on the passages:
when u just couldnt find any reason to be happy, be joyful always!
when u're too busy to pray, pray unceasingly!
when facing the difficult circumstances n discouraging people, give thanks!
~ Rennie Ohtani

Joy is not a state of heart without problem,
but it is the presence of Christ.

a reminder

Today I read an interesting quote in "Lady in Waiting":
- impression without expression leads to depression -

hmm...reminded me on my blog..
should write more before I'm heading to depression :p

the DAY

the day is coming AGAIN.....

while all the people are saying wishes and happy this - happy that...
here i am, seated in the silence...
facing the MOST sensitive day of the year...

no title

she sleeps around 1 am everyday, wakes up at 5am to do her daily devotion and Bible reading.
morning cleaning duty comes after that, then half an hour jogging to Botanic Garden.
Breakfast, shower and make up.
Then her day "starts".

Reading assignments,
Theology papers,
Sermon assignments,
Harmony homework,
Classes,
Ear training and conducting self-practice,
Music Lessons,
Chapels,
Student Council meetings and tasks,
Duties required for scholarship, 4 hours a week,
also need to practice for music lessons too!! hmm..say, 2-3 hours per day.
must practice for church ministry also! practice their choral songs, congregation songs.

Suddenly out of nowhere someone came to her life.
what?? extra time for listening to your problems?
extra time to help you with your songs?
extra time to rehearse your songs?
I almost don't have time for myself!
Can't you see I'm very busy that I can't even breathe?

no judgments made.
simply wondering if her Bible is different with mine.
or perhaps it's just a "clash" of perspective?

a decision.

it's never an easy decision...
after so much time, emotion, and energy consumed, a difficult decision has to be made.
many things could be learned from the past,and somehow I hope have gained some growth in me.


here I am.
alone yet not lonely.
single yet contented.
no regret, only Praise the Lord.

"I know that you can do all things;
no plans of yours can be thwarted."
Job 42:1

to give up or not to give up

Should this part be played crescendo or diminuendo?
Is this part still belong to the phrase or it's the echo?
Should it be louder or softer than the previous one?
How loud is forte, and how loud is mf?
wrong fingering, think how should it be..
it's not forte, you were BANGing it!
play softer, with more flat fingers..
the running notes are not even..
left and right must be together!

desperate :(
my techniques and my knowledge are not there yet.
i'm not qualified for this exam.
i'm not even qualified to play this instrument.
i'm only a piano-minor.

"What are you doing, Eirene?"
--I'm giving up.


Look up!
then look around..
exam is not about getting distinctions..
many people had merits or even simply passed, but they passed.
it's the process.
how the endurance is being built,
humility to be molded,
patience to persevere,
and to experience God's grace and strength instead of my own.

"Nothing is permanent in this wicked world—not even our troubles."

Charlie Chaplin